On Your Own

 

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You thought everyone cared; you would post on your social media profile, sitting patiently and awaiting validation or condemnation. Waiting for someone to make a lousy comment on your post and then you would spring up like a kangaroo “to hell with all my haters” you’d say. 


Or you’d outrightly block and restrict the person from texting you on social media. Then you would explain to the whole world how one of your haters wouldn’t let you rest; like the rest of the world actually cared.


You thought anyone had your time. You thought that a certain group of people would wake up one morning and discuss (from morning till night) on how to bring you down; on how to terminate your existence. But you didn’t know they were humans just like you; that they had their life problems just like you did.


You thought you were so special and that many people wouldn’t do without you. Whenever you looked at your self in front of a mirror, you would smile and ask yourself “can the world ever do without me?


You didn’t know that the walls had ears; that those inanimate structures listened to all you said and were laughing continually, at your folly. You didn’t know that your absence on earth wouldn’t be noticed at all. And even if it was; not more than a few days or weeks. You didn’t know that you would be forgotten, the same way miscarried unborn babies had been forgotten. You didn’t know that your absence wouldn’t make any difference.


You thought that all eyes were on you; especially those of your haters. You believed they would never let you rest. In your world of daily misconception, you wondered why they picked so much interest in you; why they wouldn’t leave you alone.


You didn’t know that your so-called haters cared less about your existence; that your so-called haters had things going on in their lives; that they were struggling just like you; trying to make ends meet; trying to survive and smile at last.


You thought you were as precious as gold, that you were an asset with a price tag. You felt like God created your haters because of you and your existence. But you didn’t know that everything you believed in, was a Fallacy; that some people also saw you as part of their haters, the same way you saw them.


You didn’t know that life was all about experience. That you were not meant to fit into everyone’s perfect book, because when Jesus was here on earth, He never did; no matter how pure His intentions were. You didn’t know that there was no wrong person on earth; you hadn’t just met individuals with the same reasoning and visions, which you possessed.


You thought you were the best person to exist on earth; that you were flawless and could barely make mistakes. You didn’t know that most people (if not all), thought the same about themselves. You were always wise in your own eyes; the same way several people portrayed themselves to be.


You thought you were only created with a good character, to be kind and compassionate, helpful, cheerful and sweet. You didn’t know it was all a lie; a very big lie. You didn’t know that you had to develop all these to be the person you are, today. 


You didn’t know that every other person saw the other side of you; the bad side of you, which you purposely ignored and never wished to see or hear of; because you believed you were an angel; angel of perfection.


And when people shifted away from you, you acted like you didn’t care, because actually, you weren’t designed to please everyone. So, in order not to hurt yourself, you called those distant friends and family members ‘Haters and enemies’, as a means of self-defence.


You thought God would listen to your prayers whenever you asked Him to destroy your enemies. You thought he would send down fire and brimstone immediately and wipe them out from the face of the earth. Then, whenever you heard of it, you would go to church for thanksgiving, telling people how the Lord had put your enemies to shame. You didn’t know that you were also being referred to, as an enemy in other people’s prayers to Him. And if He had answered such prayers, you wouldn’t be alive to be making such noise about enemies, haters and non-haters.


But He knew that your so-called haters & enemies were those whose reasoning and visions weren’t aligning with yours. He knew better than answering such prayers. So He decided to stay still and watch you and them.


You didn’t know that you lived in a world where so many people made careless and lousy comments on social media posts. Maybe your post was one of them, and then you took it personal, just like you’d always do.


You didn’t know that they really never cared in the end, about what they had commented; that they were only commenting based on how they felt at the exact moment they saw your post. You didn’t know that after that comment, they would continue with their life activities and forget about you once again. 


You were a champion at ‘putting people in their place’. You didn’t know that so many things were better ignored. That wasting energy on certain individuals was never worth it.


You didn’t know that giving them the energy which they were expecting from you, would wear you out in the end.


You didn’t know that it was best to live your life, with purpose, inner fulfilment and happiness. Not with big scouting eyes and ears; lying in wait for your so-called ‘haters’.


You didn’t know that it was ‘Out of sight, Out of Mind’. It was whenever you posted on social media again, that your so-called haters would resurface. And if you didn’t post, they would be nowhere to be found.


How would you ever know?

Nikesh Writes

If you can think it, you can write it ✍️(Thank you for making out time to read my articles).

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